What the HAPPENED???

Yes, This is the question I am now asking myself as I sit and ponder....However, who am I kidding? None but myself. I know what happened...disorganisation, fear, laziness and disappointment! Is anyone hearing me? #*CK!! I've been here so many times before, disappointed that the motivation went out the window, questioning what went wrong and then disgruntled because I feel I have failed myself again.


Lets put things into perspective here...ok,


1. Yes, again I failed to complete the full 12 week program. Why? Reflecting I know it was because I allowed work and my commitment to my relationship take priority over the promises I made to myself for myself.


2. Ok, the food thing I have mangaed to keep a relatively good handle on. Although not completely clean I have stuck with the knowledge gained from IBO and not slippped into the 'old ways' which for me is skipping meals and or completely starving myself.


3. The exercise has been my downfall...all i had acieived is out the window but I can say that I have still done some jogging and walking about 2-3 times a week.


$. Body wise....I have lost alot of muscle tone though not completely...I still have some defination there though the dreaded thighs are a little wobbly.


So all in all, I can be fair to myself and say that I'm not a complete loser and amazingly I don't feel too dejected about myself.





Ok....where to from here you ask? Well the plan is as follows...
*Re-read 'Fatitiude' (which I have already started doing). Craig, you are the master!!
*Not to be too ridiculously strict with myself and jsut get back on the wagon.
*Restart my 12 week program (original one from IBO) and take it from there.


*Revisit my past goals and determine whether I need to change them or not.
*Once I have set down my goals do something today that will be a step toward achieveing them.

I will make contact with the other IBO bloggers. Girls, I must confess and say that I am a little worried about contacting you all as I feel like a right knob for not sticking with the program originally. You guys are amazing and I guess I could go a bit of advice and support if you are willing.